Since everyone else is complaining , I'm just here fighting silently.

Can't believe tomorrow , it's gonna be wednesday . Feels like the week is all ready ending and I just spent it doing work. But , hay what can I say ?

At least I'am doing something right?

My younger brother at the moment is sick with some sort of bug but his doing better. Feels like everyone around is either getting sick or going mentally sick, where there running around going worried about one another . They tend to forget about the person who doesn't say 'I'm feeling crappy'. Since everyone else is complaining , I'm just here fighting silently.


Cause, I learn't long ago that clawing at your loved ones leg saying 'I feel bad , I feel alone , I want a hug doesn't work'. You get the odd long and the brush as to say 'get a grip'

Feels like I have been working so hard recently and for what ?

Sometimes I would like to get recognition for the work I do, for someone to say 'it's ok, I know you have been working hard, or you've worked hard'. But, as you get older I guess people assume you can do anything. Maybe I want some one to stop and look at me and say 'Do you want to talk?'

And sit down and listen to me, I really don't have anyone to do that with . Just my shadow....

Currently my brain feels alittle like mush , and I'am starting to think I'am hallucinating or just finally opening my eyes to the unknown. Some one told me once I wasn't normal ... can 't remember who and can't remember whether it was in a dream or real life. Sometimes it is being lonely being a teenage medium , since knowing the things I know makes it hard to relate to people in this era.