So much, has happened .
So much has been said.
So much has been felt.
I'm tired right now.... My soul feels tired right now.
Can't deal with my mother right now, not her 'what have I done to you?' or constant 'whats wrong?' or the sorry's that I don't care about.
I don't want to be mother to my siblings , I don't want to give into to my idea of learning how to use the wash machine so I can wash my own clothes so she won't have anything to say but I guess I will learn so there won't be that excuse she cleans my clothes.
I don't want to see her face
This morning I experienced thirty minutes of happiness to be later reminded it will be gone again for another week. So, Monday starts again .......
And fuck I don't want it to come.....
Right now I'm thinking of moving out slowly from the house. So, if being alone its gonna be a permanent fixture in my life then I will move out to not see my mother face any more. However, these ideas are in the planning stage.....
Well yesterday I had my first maths class back since my father finally got some money rustled up. Tomorrow gonna go out to pay for the maths exam in the summer.
Right now I'm doing very naughty things that I shouldn't do.... I guess its my sign of screaming out loud.
The Greatest is Love
3 years ago
3 comments:
Ichigo ! what have I told you about doing naughty things? you'll go blind. No wait , thats what they told me. I told you it isnt naughty if there arent any witnesses.
Um no thats killin people. I forgot what I told you.
Laundry is easier then hiding evidence, if its um Oh hell whites use bleach colours no bleach. I had some weird net bag that I put wifes under garments in. and hot water isnt important.
And hey you can move out, Im trying to be all nice an shit here so I can live in the shed in your back yard :)
and also , No young lady, yuo cant live in my truck with me. You would crap my style. How am I sappose to drive around these here collage campuses and picking up hookers with a babe in my my truck? :p
Tall your father thank you from me for helping with your math classes.
and lastly stop telling us that your doing naughty things, I have a weak heart or something and I cant handle the mental images.
Anyways im sad to see you had a shitty day too. I just had to walk 5 miles cus I locked myself outside. And I too had , well Im alive, so I didnt do naughty selfdestructive things.
Aww that sounds awful :(
I'm the youngest of 6 so can't say i know how it feels...
But yeahh it is hard to be a teen & juggle everything,
Not to mention the hormones that make us do naughty self destructive things!!
I like your blog though, I'll follow it when I figure out how... lol.
Would be glad if you'd read mine. :)
ps: my blog is
http://kathleencosgravesblog.blogspot.com
:P
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