Today I got a nasty shock, I have one more chance to get the grade I need for maths. Well I think I have one more chance since I read some of the offers from the three universities so far that have given me a conditional offer. That they will give me place if I meet the grades with my work at college and getting that grade for maths.
I guess I really fail to read the small print sometimes, but if it hadn't been for me looking for other reasons at my offers . I wouldn't have read that bit, however I'm going to call the universities , telling them I'm receiving lessons on maths .That I'm taking again the test in the summer and I wonder if I twist the truth a little and say that I was ill most of the time in my last year of high school and that it affected my education in my maths and it affected my overall grade and have been receiving support in maths every since but have shown a progress of improvement in grades.
Well my work at college is no problem since I WILL GET THAT DOWN but with my maths I really need to my crap together and study hard.
I will be honest and say I feel stressed in addition with problems with my mother and my love life and my four month plan to lose 10lbs.
With all these things doesn't really make me a happy bunny, you know when you get those typical depressed people who don't eat when they depressed . I'm the opposite , if I'm not care full I could mindless eat if stressed but I'm working hard to revert to a typical depressed person so at least it would be one less thing to be worried about.
With all of this hurdles, there's added thing with past live memories . Seeing the dearly departed and hearing whispers in the night while I'm trying to get to sleep. These last two nights I have been hearing whispers in room and then this male voice saying 'miss me' I swear that's what I heard. It felt like it was just like that time when I was 15-16 , sleeping my old room in a different house . Being scared shit less since I was hearing a full blown conversation between two male ghosts in my room and me under the covers.
I really need guidance right now on what to do, just this once for someone to tell me they can help me and give me advice. I say the lords prayer every night . praying that some one can help me .
SO GOD HELP ME NOW , FIND ME SOMEONE WHO CAN HELP , A GUIDE
I PROMISE I WILL GET OFF MY ASS AND LOOK BUT COULD YOU HELP ME IN MY SEARCH FOR GUIDANCE. IT AIN'T FOR LITTLE OLD ME TO BE LOOKING BY HERSELF WITH OUT NO HELP. I'M NOT AN EVIL PERSON I HAVEN'T KILLED ANYONE OR STOLEN BUT I HAVE CHEATED AND I WILL BE GLAD TO REPENT FOR ANY ILL FEELINGS.
AMEN
The Greatest is Love
3 years ago
3 comments:
well im pretty useless ichigo, I think i eat more crap now because Im depressed. but Im sure if you focus on one thing at a time, like meditating every day at noon, then math at 1pm, fitness at 2p. That sort of thing, may help.
In your profile under interests, try putting, medium, spirit guidance or something like that.
with the ghost voices your hearing, can you ask them the STFU your trying to sleep!? :D
http://johnzworld2.blogspot.com/2009/11/shared-interests.html
^-^ I like strawberries *yums!*
About math...I have the same problem, except I probably get it easier than you because I'm still in Grade 9 (so I still have time before University to get my grades back up). All of my other subjects are pretty good too, so I don't have to worry to much about anything else.
All I can say is WORK HARD! ^-^
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