Wednesday, 7 October 2009

In a crisis

my dad is still not talking properly to me , so I'am in deep panic inside . I know that when I'am in stress I comfort eat so I'am taking measures in place to stop that. Its annoying its like when I was in college walking it was when I stopped for one second and it was like some one screamed in my head.

Maybe its a sign that , all the panic is building up inside . Talking with some one is impossible since one . they don't know me , two . my parents are not good with talking like my dad motto is 'your crazy, or what?' so when he says things like that its not reassuring.

I feel right now that I'am in a complete loss , its like I'am for what next?

what gonna happen next ?

I'am in love with man that can never be fully mine , and next year I'am going to university . Him and I are scared about it since university and things involving it can lead to me maybe moving out or I spending less time with him.

when I imagining being away from him my heart aches with despair , its like I'am in extreme turmoil. Me and him have been in love for a long time , so its not puppy love , its a deep love that can cut and make you feel pain sometimes. Like right now , not knowing where to move next or just lost.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

im glad you found that cable and happy birthday.
parents are all wierd, thankfully my daughter doesnt know me huh:)
she'd be the one sayin your crazy. and those snacks of yours look yummy too. are dogs able to eat nuts?
and sorry about your cat, ive never heard of one running away.

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