Thank you Johnz, for your last comment. It really meant a lot to me....
I'm really on edge at the moment , maybe its the lack of human contact at the moment or the lack of food. Who's knows things are kind of fucked up at the moment , it like we are playing this great game of 'Family' that nothing else can matter. Not the despair or the torment of being isolated from my beloved.
What have I got to complain? , I'm living a 'life' , I'm studying , I have all the essentials a girl of my age needs. So what have I got to complain about????
Right now its taking all my self restrained to not push the self destruct button. All this anxiety is building up , there's no one here anymore to sooth it. I just keep scratching at my skin . just wanting to tear my skin to let it out.
I have had periods of this but he has always been there to calm my fears to be my blanket . Now that blanket has been pulled out from me and now I'm left alone.
I guess this blog is where I can be brutally honest with what I'am thinking and feeling without offending my family members.
The Greatest is Love
4 years ago
1 comment:
your very welcome ichigo. You have so much to complain about, come on now, think of something :)
Its hurts me to know your without your beloved, just rest asssured that someday he will return to comfort you properly. And if not, then hunt his ass down and stick him in your closet:D
I love your last bit about blogging and not worrying about offending, I intentionally do it to offend and the family(my wife) and the police :D
Your a better person than I am i guess, plus you have inflated pancakes in your blouse :D
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