Yesterday night , I kind of had my dream shattered a little.
The ballet school I was meant to study in at the end of February , turned out to be a bit further away from my house than expected. My father and I looked on google map and he said ' I ain't letting you go there especially late at night , since around 8pm the area gets filled with drug dealers and I don't want you coming back home raped'
Since I realized the school I wanted to go to , was in the area filled with black people. This area in London called brixton is like a Chinatown. But. its known for gang related shootings and drug dealings.
I was so disappointed to realize I hadn't checked properly and it disheartened me to carry on looking for anymore schools. Before we could carrying on looking my father had to go out for a while to talk to some guy, I stayed up for as long as I could but it was getting late and I went to sleep sad that he didn't come back and finished helping me find some place. However, there is a possibility of going to another school. Its still far but closer than the other one. Well, when my father comes home later on I will talk it over with him.
But. I'm so pissed . That each time I wanna do something new I have to do the research by myself and phone myself and if I do happen to find some thing it doesn't turn out to be right.
These at the moments when I want to someone to help me and for once say
'Hay , ichigo I have found the place for you'
That would be so fucking wonderful ......
Well , this morning I woke up to go to the gym. Went downstairs so my father he looked at me and I looked at him . I could see in his eyes he felt guilty for no coming back in time however, I'm a little passed caring.
So I went to the gym did 50 mins tread mill with incline 4.0 to 10.0 and was experimenting with the speeds and incline settings. Trying to do something so my body won't get used to doing the same exercise. Finshed out with using the stationary bike and went home.
Well at the moment I'm happy with my progress , I haven't weighed myself but going with measurements at the moment.
My waist was 26.3inch
Now- 26.1inch
My mesurements of the other body area are going down. I'll see if I will do a weigh real weigh in on saturday.
The Greatest is Love
4 years ago
1 comment:
with all the things I cant remember its strange the things I do. I remember your father driving parts around london, maybe cus I like to drive and that was similar to the job I had.
Men are more like women then we let out. We always say women gosspi all the time, but put a few men in the same room and we too talk for hours and not realize where the time went, so his meeting last night just ran longer then he expected.
I sad that you cant attend that ballet school, but sadder for the reason. It kills me to know such places exsist, you, me and the police know that bixton is full of gangs, shootings and drugs, yet do the police do thier job? No, they let the area remain a sewer rampant with crime.
the funny sad part is, if we were to go there and start cleaning the place up, we would get arrested, not the real scum:(
more advice that I give and not follow..
Take pride in yourself when you yourself make all the calls and find the resources to get the things you want and dont rely on other people to say here ichigo, look what I have for you.
that being said, i myself do not call the doctor to get the therapy for my shoulder, or the place I go to for the exams, and get other help I need. annd I sleep in a truck instead of meeting people that can get me a safe room to live in.
at least you go to the gym and exersize :)
Post a Comment